Uncertainty, Frustration, Tiredness

Those words can just be a summary of my time at home. Don’t get me wrong, I like being at home and enjoy time on my own.

But anxiety has kicked in.

There’s only so many things I can do at home and the things that excited me at the beginning don’t seem to be helping me anymore. It really is a strange feeling.

You see, I love writing. I love taking the words out of my head and make them into paragraphs or stories. However, this is not what is happening anymore. The words are stuck in my head, and it’s heavy. Heavy full of words that are trying to make it into one of these paragraphs.

But you know what the good thing is about all this? Trying to stay positive and to come out stronger than before. I am acknowledging the issue and I am trying to overcome it on my own.

And what is the issue? You ask. Well, the issue is I am not writing. And not because I don’t have the time, because that’s not true, but because I have been procrastinating and to tell you the truth, I have been lazy. And no, it is not an excuse but just the fact that I acknowledge it is a start, don’t you think?

My mind is full of ideas and projects that I want to work on and I just don’t understand why none of them are happening. Maybe that’s where the issue starts? Trying to do multiple things at once and completing none of them? is that why I feel frustrated and tired? It is definitely something to think about.

Today is the day to start something. It is Monday, the beginning of a new month and the perfect time to start. And the only reason why I am writing this is to have it as a backup when I feel down again. I will remember that post I wrote on June 1st talking about new beginnings and this will be my go-to post when I am feeling lazy, tired or with a big head full of words.