As my university days start to get shorter and shorter, I lie down in my bed and think about what’s about to come.
For some reason, the beginning of this week has been tedious for me. I feel like I don’t have any more energy to even wake up in the morning. Lots of people have told me that its because of the season and blame the time change from last weekend. I agree, the fact that it is getting dark by 4.30pm that kind of ruins my day. By 5.15-5.30pm you can already see the stars and the sun is completely gone. I know I am one of those people who just want to get in bed once the sun goes down.
Anyways, I am starting to get tired and lazy and don’t even feel like finishing up homework. The only thing that allows me to keep going is the fact that once November is over, I won’t have to write any more papers or worry about the deadline for assignments…For now.
While I was lying down in bed this evening, I thought about how my life was going to be a year from now. I looked around my room and thought to myself that by January 2017 I don’t even know where I will be sleeping. As homeless as it might sound, that is actually how I am [lol], because I don’t really know what I am going to do once I finish my last semester of university.
Yes, I have plans. Plans that included obtaining another degree/certificate starting in January. However, if I don’t get accepted into the programs I applied for then I guess I will have to start looking for a job and a place to live. (No like I don’t have to anyways).
All of this to say, I am happy but at the same time anxious that university will be over for me soon. Happy because one stage of my life will be completed but anxious because I am afraid I will not be ready for what is coming. At this point, days keep getting longer but I think it is because of my anxiety of wanting this year to be over. I have got to the point where I just want to get to bed no later than 9pm, and if I do, I will be the laziest person to wake up the next day for my 9am class.
To be honest, I don’t know what happened. I used to be a morning person and I usually stayed up late watching Netflix or playing video games even though I had class the next day. But today, I just can’t.
Anyways, I am going to open TheSims on my computer and play until my body tells me to stop. [Which will be probably be soon, considering is almost 9pm].